BoySlut

lost and found

 

an old man got

arrested the other

day

 

a ring he claimed

was lost was found

in the panties of a

3 year old little girl

 

i was hoping he was

going to tell the cops

it was a magic trick

gone awry

 

but he confessed to

some touching down

there

 

which made me wonder

how many other times

did he play lost and

found with the kids

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waitress

 

all the curves

where i like

them

 

i can’t help but

think about you

sitting on my

face within

thirty seconds

of meeting you

 

it tends to make

hello a little odd

 

while pretending

i’m listening

and getting lost

in your eyes

 

i’m actually

picturing

sliding your

panties to the

side and working

my tongue like a

version of me

twenty years

younger

 

yes, i’ll have

another drink

 

it’s not often

i eat chicken

wings with a

boner

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countless years of just taking it

 

broken

forgotten and

left for dead

 

the real reason

i hate myself

is i allowed

the pain to

become

constant

 

it’s incredibly

hard to stand

up for oneself

after countless

years of just

taking it

 

wanting change

is a myth

 

we want others

to change

 

leave my utopia

as it is

 

violence, murder

manipulation

and deceit

 

you want change

 

sometimes you

have to dance with

the devil to get it

 

and i don’t mind

playing with evil

under a full moon

 

all my other choices

got me here

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the silence you desperately need

 

harrowing nightmares

 

fucked up secrets

that no child should

have to bear for

any length of time

 

let alone an entire life

 

you can smell the

guilt in the air

 

hiding behind cheap

perfume and whatever

douchebag body spray

is hot at the moment

 

try to find an awkward

pause where you can

fake a laugh

 

or a cry

 

or whatever emotion

you need to drive

the demons away

 

seek out the silence

you desperately need

 

grab your favorite book

and pretend that reading

in the dark gives you

special powers that the

rest of the world should

be very worried about

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flawed

 

a hearty chuckle when

you think back to the

innocence of your youth

 

how it was robbed from

you in your grandmother’s

bathroom by a curious

cousin

 

you can’t help but think

she wasn’t fully aware

 

but you’re more

comfortable being

a victim than an

understanding

adult

 

rational thought never

found a home in your

abused mind

 

and there is never

enough alcohol when

you really need to kill

the pain

 

yet you know at the

heart of the matter

 

you wouldn’t change

a thing

 

this is who you are

 

change is for those who

are not comfortable being

flawed